Category Archives: Poetry

Reaching the Limit

There are times all through life,

We feel our limit has been met.

I’ve been at this crossing so often,

It’s a benefit to never forget.

I don’t forget the days,

I didn’t have the strength.

Days I couldn’t fake a smile, I hurt so much,

I could almost faint.  

 

I remember the times

I thought all my will was gone.

Remember the times I laughed,

When people told me I was strong.

Because would they still say that,

If they saw me here crying?

Would they still feel the same,

If they knew I welcomed the thought of dying?

 

That space completely blinds me,

Where I can’t see or create anything ahead.

My energy is drained, spirit crushed,

Any and all positivity is dead.

Because I’m in my head,

And not in my heart.

I let the stress manifest,

And it breaks me apart.

 

The key is to remember,

The days that limit broke,

I found the strength to go on,

My spirit stopped being choked.

Sounds like a joke,

But we must remember both.

The days it rained,

The days it shined.

The memory of breaking free,

From the limits that confined.

 

Copyright June 2018
-IxChel Tonantzin-
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Sister Standing

How can you stand there,

Act like you know what I’m about?

Judging my life,

While turning your snout.

 

We’ve shared homes, tables, food and friends.

I’ve tried to connect with you over and over again.

Only to get no reply, brushed off again.

Sister, I truly don’t understand.

 

You’ve always fought against me,

While standing directly adjacent.

But then I put myself out there,

And your gun I’m facin’.

 

I stand in that space,

Too prideful to cry but my heart is breaking.

Seeing it’s my sister,

Finger on the trigger and shaking.

 

You can squeeze or walk away…

But I’ll always stay.

First Published Work Coming Soon!

I can honestly say that I’ve always said I wanted to be published but there was always a part of my mind that didn’t think it was going to happen. About a month ago I saw a call for art, poetry and different artistic works to be published in a book that my job does yearly prints of works. I submitted a poem about my mom called ‘My Strength’. 

A couple weeks ago I got a confirmation that they wanted to publish my work without any changes!! Now I’ve got this paragraph bio to write and it’s so hard to sum up who I am in a paragraph! Needless to say I’m excited, I’m happy and I’m encouraged; to see my name on the shelves of bookstores for Yah’s greatness, yes!

Poetry Book Editing Starts

I’ve finally allowed my husband to talk me into going through all my old poetry and compiling the best ones for a book. I personally don’t feel my poems are very special but I’ve been told by numerous people that I say and word things in a unique way.

So today I’m going to start reading each of my favorites and begin editing updating and improving them. Eventually I’ll compile a manuscript and begin submitting it to publishers and see what kind of response I get! Honestly a little nervous but I’ll get over it.

Like Bob Marley said “You won’t get anywhere if you don’t start somewhere.”

More Than A Vacation

The works of the devil

Conspire all around us.

The family in our lives,

Down to the stops of a bus.

At times we want to lash out,

Break down the people around us.

Show those that are ignorant,

No, you’re not above us.

 

It takes growth of character,

A willingness to be different,

To build a new legacy,

Unfamiliar to what we grew up in.

Break away from the mold!

Leave behind that old tree!

We’re starting our own book,

Just you, God and me.

 

We both understand

New adventures won’t be easy.

But to stay in this heap,

Just thinking of it,

Makes us queasy.

 

Moments I feel like crying,

I thought family would be supportive,

Draw me closer to you,

And we develop our motive.

So if trials bring us closer together,

Cause us to realize how we are unique;

I welcome every trial with a smile,

Since we’ll be developing our technique!

 

Let the opinions of others,

But just what they are.

Might implement one or two,

But God’s driving this car.

Keep our focus on Him,

Pray over our decisions.

Keep moving on our path,

Closer to His vision.

Those that don’t understand,

Or chose not to listen.

Will learn from our actions,

They will learn from our provision.

 

Our spirits yearn to expand,

To places our bodies haven’t touched.

Where others we know,

Might not want to risk so much.

 

In the end the choice is ours,

Stay put or see the Lord’s creations.

2013, will be more than a vacation!

DOUBTLESS CHANGE

I never find words to describe,

The excitement I feel inside.

It’s nothing like I’ve ever known;

Leave everything I know,

To establish a new home.

I look at my husband,

In total amazement.

Never thought I was worthy,

Of a life so amazin.

We’ve experienced so many new things,

Another first for us both.

We’ve left old lovers,

Fought for each other,

And watched the other grow.

Now this new milestone,

Like a chance for a new life.

New things to be discovered,

After finally being made a wife!

The Lord is showing me His blessings,

As we make better decisions.

And this move to Colorado,

Is in response to His Vision.

Its hard to explain,

To people who don’t want to understand you.

Its easy to maintain,

With someone you know wont abandon you.

After all the gloomy days,

My husband has brought light to.

There’s no doubt in my mind,

That together we’re making the right move.

Safe Heart, Transparent Eyes

I see your eyes meet mine, 
Pain from the past,
Melts down inside.
But my feelings must hide
Because they’re much too strong.
To have developed like this,
Over, not too long.
 
But my eyes tell all,
They can’t hide my secrets.
So when mine meet yours,
I know you see it.
 
For some reason,
You see it all;
The smile in my eyes,
And when I’m about to ball. 
 
From a distance, I admire you 
Everytime I’m around.
Then make sure to turn my eyes,
So I don’t get clowned.
 
But it’s starting not to matter,
I don’t care who see’s.
Then I have to check myself,
Because I know me.
 
I’ll treat you like my man,
Even if you don’t deserve it yet.
Let my heart run crazy,
And in reality I forget.
You don’t know the depths
My love can travel.
I’ve loved so hard
My knees hit gravel.

On a public sidewalk,
My love had no shame.
Many times one-way love,
Had my body feel no pain.
 
Just burning anguish
In my soul.
Frost bite of the heart,
That made me cold.
 
So when I tell you, I doubt,
Your words can’t put me at ease.
See where I’m coming from,
Understand me PLEASE!