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Authenticity at its Finest

Being authentic is something that doesn’t come easily, especially in the society we live in. The society that bombards us with psychological programming everywhere we turn; what’s considered beautiful, what’s socially acceptable, what’s “real”. In this society being authentic looks like lots of things some of us experience; things like, blood relatives praising your journey in your face and then talking about you behind you’re back, people telling you you’re brave while they gossip and laugh at you the minute you leave and it can look like people questioning you’re every motive, plan and thought out of their own personal fears and shortcomings.

Authenticity, to me, is being able to have a vision and set a plan, while also being comfortable knowing and saying “I don’t have all the answers.” Only a fool would claim to know everything about everything and I learned young that I didn’t want to be or look like a fool to anyone, especially not myself. Authenticity, in my eyes, is also being able to plow through all the negative talk, disrespectful relatives, hateful & unhappy people and still hold the vision. Sometimes holding onto the vision you have and what’s in your heart can be the loneliest stance you take because everyone isn’t on your frequency and that’s ok, that’s how the world maintains its balance. That space is also where we develop personal strength to endure the journey that was meant uniquely for us and no one else.

I have loads and loads of respect for people who aren’t afraid to tell me the truth, who don’t omit information when they’re talking to me, who have the nerve to come to me and tell me something I did or said rubbed them the wrong way because that’s the only way for me to grow and learn from that connection or interaction. So many times relationships fail or fall apart because people are too afraid to be authentic with themselves. So how can we really expect people to be authentic with us when they’re being fake with themselves? That’s unrealistic!! It’s also unrealistic to live your life not being authentic then expect and demand people be authentic with you… We get what we give from this life.

Recently my most authentic moment was realizing that I put someone I love in the position to be hurt by the same people that have hurt him over and over again since he was a child, due to my own narrow beliefs. Like many of us, I was raised to put “family first” and nothing came above family. So when I met my husband in 2010 and he told me he didn’t associate with his family anymore because of some negative situations that constantly put him in bad positions my ignorance of his experiences caused me to push and push and push. I’ve pushed for 7 years for him to keep trying, keep reaching out, keep spending time with them. People are human, I get that. But after our families both told us we would fail in Colorado and we didn’t, I thought that the next big move we made would be met with a more positive energy.

This is where I’d love to bring in being honest with yourself about who people show themselves to be. People really can’t help but be who they are. So when you see someone valuing things you don’t value, that’s a huge clue that they’re not on your frequency or vibration.

Trust what people show you over what they tell you!

After our move from Colorado to New Mexico was almost complete we decided to tell our families that we sold our house and took the money to buy the property we’ve been wanting since we left California. My husband’s family told us so many positive things and how great of a job we were doing. Next thing I know we’re getting calls from other family members telling us not to be discouraged, don’t listen to what people say, and, the famous, “so and so said you’re stupid for making that move.” Why did I expect anything different? How can people change while sitting there telling you they want the same things they wanted when they were in high school? That was dumb on my part to see no efforts in self work, loving themselves and their son more than they showed us before. And the end of it all, the person that hurt was the person I’ve loved through lifetimes.

The moral of the story is, believe people when you catch them not being authentic and be authentic enough to call a spade a spade when you see it.

-IxChel-

 

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Sky Is The Limit? That’s It?!

How many times growing up did you hear a parent or teacher say, “What do you want to be when you grow up? Sky’s the limit!” like it was big enough to hold your dreams? I’m a firm believer in no limits besides the ones you set for yourself. I hear that now and think

“Wow. The sky used to seem so big. Now it seems too small for that purpose!”

Over the past 5 years I’ve grown in ways I never imaged. I’ve realized things about my past, memories and feelings that I didn’t understand until I was where I’m at, spiritually, now. When I started writing this today I had a picture of the Universe that I wanted to share and I planned on making a point to say that the Universe is the limit. During my spiritual growth spurt I’ve learned to pay attention to the words I’m using and “limit” carries an energy that has held me back.

The definition of “limit” is (1) a point or level beyond which something does not or may not extend or pass (2) a restriction on the size or the amount of something permissible or possible. My message I leave you with today is…

YOU ARE INFINITE!!

Quitting Isn’t Always Giving Up!

My last post from January spoke about fear and how I’ve let it hold me back for so long. Throughout the closing of this chapter in my life I’ve realized that I let fear dictate so much of my life up until now.

I’ve been working for a certain employer for the past few years and over the last 2 years I’ve had every action, minute, emotion, tone, and word picked apart, scrutinized and dissected. I went through my phases; stress, anger, frustration, sadness and relief. The whole environment was toxic. Toxic to my health, energy and I had to shake that!

So I did! And you know what I manifested?! Exactly what I wanted!

Then to top it off, I was welcome with love, congratulations, encouragement and all around goodness from everyone, even strangers!! My spirit and body already feels like it’s been raised to a higher level and I’m not even done transforming yet! That’s what the most exciting part! So I encourage you to take your leaps! Honor your process but remember fear will not be a means to your happiness so shake it!

 

 

January New Moon in Capricorn, Sister Circle

For the past 6 months, or so, I’ve been vibing with a tribe of women called the Organic Blood Sisterhood. I came across this company, Organic Blood Yoni Eggs, when I was looking for a solution to help me end a 6 month cycle. At the time I never imagine that simply coming across a new company would end up with me coordinating the Denver Chapter of the sisterhood, my first mentor and a path in life I never imagined was possible for me!

I’ve been working on some developments with my own company lately so I haven’t been hosting these sister circles regularly. Which makes me very excited to get back into the groove of things on this New Moon in Capricorn in January 2016! I’ve got a beautiful event planned and we’ll be working on our intentions we’ve been setting since the divine portal opening on 11/11!

We’ll be focusing on certain goals and developing a plan on how to attain that goal. I’ll be using my experience as a 2 time start-up business owner to assist those in attendance with developing and organizing their plans! We’ll also be learning about how to use our sacral chakra, crystals and yoni eggs to take the highest advantage from this powerful space.

I’ve also been learning about how certain foods can activate or clear out our chakras so we’ll be having foods that unlock the sacral chakra available as well. One of the things I love the most about hosting events like this is that they give me the opportunity to grow and step out of my comfort zone, two things I need to achieve my personal goals! If you’re interested in attending this amazing event we’ll be meeting in-person in Aurora, CO and we will have video conferencing available for those of you who are not in Colorado or able to attend in-person.

 

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Constant Appreciation

Life in general is hard when you look back at everywhere you’ve been, who you’ve lost, mistakes you’ve made, and possibly secrets you still hold. But when you’re in a place of security, safety and pure love we are not bound by the past. We’re free to accept the past for what it was and who it made up and move forward with the lessons the past has provided. There is a sense of freedom when I look back on all the things that could have took me down another path, had I had chosen another option.

Just yesterday I was standing in the store picking out some snacks and I felt this wave of fluttering nervousness rise up in my stomach. When I looked to my left, my king was walking down the aisle toward me. It made me think of the first time I met him. Meeting this random guy from the internet who told me he just wanted to hook up. And no matter how much I told my friends or myself that he wasn’t anything to me, he was everything without even knowing. To the point where my spirit can feel him hitting a corner before my eyes even saw him. It was touching. Even not typing out what happened and what I felt brings tears of joy to my eyes and makes the love in my heart beat harder with every muscle contraction.

The other night I had another dream about my son, my soon-to-be son. The first time I met him was a few weeks ago following the night I dreamt of our soon-to-be daughter as a teen. I knew it was our son not only because his smile, eyes and looks were a perfect blend of my king and I but I could feel his spirit, his happiness and his joy when he saw me. I’ve never felt that before. I felt like he is a part of me and I can feel everything he feels. Sometimes it’s scary to talk about or profess things that you have no way of knowing but that’s only when we let society and our past determine how we feel. I felt that was my son greeting me before he makes his grand entrance. I feel that although I interpreted the order of I dreams to tell me the order of I children, my son came to me and told me that he would be first. Although I’m scared to say this because I’m scared to be wrong… I feel like my son was speaking to me from the womb. Although I haven’t confirmed if I’m pregnant or not… My spirits tell me InI am.

Waiting patiently.

New to HerbMentor.com

While I’ve been researching for herbs for pain and nerve relief I came across this HerbMentor website and my husband strongly suggested that it would be a good investment for our business. Since I’m constantly trying to research herbs to improve and develop Zion Glory’s products we thought it would be a good way for me to be involved in a community of people who have and are sharing this information. I’m still new to the site but they do offer a 14 day trial for $1 and a monthly membership rate of $10 if you don’t want to pay for the entire year. 

Today I went ahead and downloaded the Home Study Guide and I’m super excited! I’ll be journaling my lessons about the herbs and my growth using this blog so I hope you enjoy!

Migration Isn’t Over

When I King mentioned wanting to migrate out of California 2 years ago these butterflies raised up in my stomach and I questioned everything. Now we have a home, I have a good job and we have our company picking up momentum (Zion Glory) and again the conversation about migrating out of the company sooner than the 5 years we planned on when we landed in Colorado. At first I wasn’t too sure about leaving the United States to live in a country I’ve never visited before and know very little about. But the more we talk about it, learn about it, and meet people via the internet that have made the migration the more my heart rejoices in Zion.

I feel like I’m fighting everything in me not to put our new house up for sale and leave this country to burn without InI in it. But another part of my heart tells me “It’s not yet your time” and then something positive happens with the business and I can feel that our mission is about to blow up! We’re getting great feedback from the people who signed up to receive exclusive samples of upcoming products and we’re developing newer and improved versions of our products everyday. Now I feel this burning desire for Ethiopia and I know that now is the time to advertise this Sheshemane Settlement movement using our business.

If anyone is interested in learning more about our company and what we have going on and coming up in our plans and community involvement sign up for our monthly newsletter, Rootz Report! Send an email to ZionGlory.CO@gmail.com and let us know you want to receive the newsletter!

Blessings, Love & Light. Ras Tafari!

A Turning World Always Changes

Sometimes I look back and meditate on the last few months and I can’t see where my zest for writing went. Then I look around me, my current state, my current daily activities and I see where I lost it. The disappointing part is that I do this to myself. I get so wrapped up in one thing that I don’t make time to even think about the things that I love to do. Then the times that I do think about it I’m so bound to other obligations, by my own fault completely, that I “don’t have time”. 

My husband and I have been in the process of buying our first home and so many negative and positive things have happened that I wouldn’t even know where to begin. What I can say about this period of transition is that is has brought my husband and I closer. This is my most treasured outcome. Then there are things that hang in the balance; when will my king work again? Will I get this promotion I’ve been verbally promised? Will we be evicted? How do people see me? 

Today I met up with a person I became friends with around 6-8 months ago, we fell out over a miscommunication and she contacted me yesterday, seemingly out of no where. Now I know, neither of us were sure about how our next conversation would go but we both went through with meeting up today. When I saw her it was as if things had never changed, even before we started talking. In the middle of all the negative things that are going on she brought a little more light to my darkness with her genuine smile and greeting. 

After speaking with my friend today I realized my own faults in the situation, I realized that what she said about how she felt I was going to respond was right and is something that needed to be improved on, I saw that this person had true and pure love for me. When she said “I didn’t realized what I had when I had it” I knew that my friendship was important to her. Love you girl. 

Seasons in Colorado

I’m happy to say that nothing that has happened to us or for us since we left California has been expected. Since we left we’ve been growing closer and closer to God. However, we’ve realized that there will be fakes and phonies no matter what state you move to. But, personally, when I’m away from my family and not always worrying about pleasing them I’m much happier. Family & friends from the past continue to show us that our happiness is not their primary interest, they don’t support our decisions and overall, they don’t love us like they think they do.

Finding friends here has been difficult as well. For some reason most of the people we have run into are searching for that “Cali life” where they’re hard or from the hood but most of the people that are from here or other surrounding states have no idea what a real hood looks like or functions like. We’ve come in contact with people that talk all the talk but can’t finish walking, just like in Cali. So what’s different? What’s better?

Those are easy questions to answer! What’s different is the speed of life people travel at, fresh air, animals everywhere, mountain views, outdoor recreation and the ability to take a deep breath and not taste or smell smog; to take a deep breath and feel like I’m no longer suffocating. I’ve never been able to breath in and taste pine cones or water in the air and its refreshing! What’s better? Like I said, people are generally the same in most places but my main source of happiness comes from not having to feel unimportant when people that say they love me can’t make time to sit down and talk to me or plan activities with me, from not feeling obligated to go to these parties & celebrations every weekend and see my aunts & uncles dismiss me and avoid me because of my beliefs or lifestyle, from not having to feel like I’m 2nd best to everyone else around me. THAT is what makes Colorado so much better than California.

 

 

Being Ready Doesn’t Matter

I’ve been out if work for a week or eight now and I was ready to start working after just two weeks. It was enough time to get our basic relocation things done and I had a few offers but chose something that wasn’t what I felt was for me. Although I’m so happy that my husband has started working all of our house buying plans are on hold until I get my first paycheck.
I’ve always heard my dad say “I was born ready!” When we called out to him and I had a moment like that JUST now. I want to buy this home and get started with getting into our new life and I can always feel myself over anxious and stressing. When I heard my dads voice and saying want to come out of me my very next thought was quiet and a sense of relaxation came over me as I heard myself tell myself that it isn’t God’s time for me yet. Then I thought, all this stress and worry is going to be laughed at one day! I’ll look back at this from the job of His choosing and think “Wow Tina, you still had doubt after all He’s blessed you with! Now look where your at!”

Patiently waiting for that day!